Thursday, January 15, 2015

Day 2: So Far So Good

Last night's sleep was weird. Though I slept well, I woke up a few times during the night for no reason at all only to go back to sleep again. Yesterday was also tougher than I thought it would be but I won.

I woke up today morning feeling no craving and thinking to myself- hey I think I beat this! Of course I was wrong. The ride to work was freezing cold, the way that often inspires smoking. The craving wasn't as bad as anything yesterday but it still counts.

Now I realize that I will eventually have to meet my friends and band mates, all of whom also smoke. I guess that is going to prove to be the toughest temptation of them all. Smokers bond over smoking. This might be universal. All you have to do is ask a stranger for a light and the ice is broken. An easy conversation starter right there. Perhaps now that I am predicting this, it might make me more aware in fighting it.

Final thought on this post. I don't remember what I used to do when bored before I started smoking. What do non-smokers do when bored? For smokers it is simple: Light Up! Smoke another one and it takes your mind off of boredom somehow. Now I have to give myself things to do. This is starting to feel more and more like a research paper on the observations of an ex-smoker.

Anyhow not much to say right now. I am feeling mostly good and in control. Peace.

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